July 2007- a happy Little Bug- eating peas and loving life. Momma is still working on getting it right - because there has to be a formula, right?
August 2007- not a birthday picture- but a picture where I see both of us relaxing more with each other and learning to trust. This is the real beginning for me or accepting that things will not go wrong, that we are a family and that this dream is going to be a wonderful reality.
September 2007- the light is breaking through (I love this picture because of how we are bathed in the light. God is watching over us both. Little Bug is showing more of who he is and I am showing more of who I am and we are really connecting. Family is there- we are not just 2 people in a house.
October 2007- Little Bug is coming more into his personality. Quite challenging at times, but certainly a joy- even when I am complaining about him waking up at 4:30 am, 4:50 am, 5:30 am, 6 am. I know his moods- I see his thoughts, I see the influences I have and I see the influences his first family has.
And finally- not a picture from December- but a picture from tonight, the eve of 6 months home as a family. Having a great time playing with Momma. Still there are struggles- an over tired toddler and an over tired momma are not a good mix. But we get through it and we both love each other.
We have come along way since that Friday in June and we have along way to go. I can say, being a single mom is hard work and even so, I would not change this for anything. My life has a purpose and a focus that was lacking before Little Bug came into my life. We are a family: small, not all knitted together yet, but a family.
i doubted God's plan, his timing, his purpose for me through the years and the adoption, but I don't doubt now. His plan was perfect, his timing was perfect- the pain was part of it and will always be a part of it. But God has used the pain, the waiting and the struggle for his glory. Little Bug and I are doing our part for God's Glory.
Thank you for reading our story and encouraging me to be a better momma.
Love to you,
Deb AKA Momma Bug