One year ago today (Wednesday)

One year ago today, I waited in a hotel room- the baby lounge at the Marriott for Bug to arrive with my agency rep (Rafeal), Mireya, his foster mother and Susi, his sister.

I know I just wanted the whole thing to be over, I just wanted to be done with the adoption and done with the drama of dealing with the lawyer and the process. But I also knew that Mireya, Carlos and their family had very different emotions, they were preparing to say good bye to their Nene.

One picture- sadness, confusion and a glimmer of happiness- That is the picutre of adoption, that is the truth- One person is happy, one person is confused and one family is grieving.













Bug will be home one year on 01Jun- there is still a sense of loss, there is still the grief, there is still the underlying sadness, but from the loss comes joy, from the sadness there is happiness, from the pain there is healing.

Bug knows he is loved by his Momma and Momi, Popi, Susi, Karla and Nigua. He knows they are just a phone call away. He knows they are in Guatemala and he will see them again. He also knows that his Momma is right here and we are a family forever.

Love to you,
Deb and Bug